My Soldier and His Prayer

Wrote this a few days ago... though its not a comfortable subject, its Truth can't be forgotten

With a gun on his back the young man stood

His heart silently bleeding, he’d cry if he could

He had to stay strong and keep on with the fight

No matter the fear or terror of the night

For just a split second he thought of a child

Jealous was he of innocence so undefiled

For what was once just a fun childhood game

Was now strapped to his back, never leaving him the same

It was his choice to make an oath years ago

No one said with honor came a measure of woe

He fought for his country, for the Red White and Blue

He’d fight til God called him Home, he knew that was true

Dear God, he silently prayed, are you there?

Do you understand my heart’s torn, do you hear my prayer?

I’m fighting for those I love, don’t you understand?

If you do anything Lord, guide this gun in my hand

I’m tired of seeing those I love fall ‘round me

I’m trying to be the soldier you want me to be

They trained me to be firm, tough and strong

But I wake up dreading the funeral’s vile song

You know I serve you above all the rest

So I humbly beg of you this one small request

Can you show up in my story just a little bit more?

Tell me just how you share in my heart’s broken core

At first the young man heard not a sound

Hopelessly he laid his head on the ground

Maybe he’d misunderstood God’s grace

Maybe he’d been forgotten, as well as his race

“My child, raise your head once again

Realize that love, my love, always gains a win

I never considered leaving you here alone

I Cherish the times you’re honest before my throne

You asked to see how I understood your fight

You asked to know if I understood a hopeless night

My Son, my fight held not a gun, but a cross

And believe me, I understand the heartache of loss

But as you’ve seen your brothers die here

I remember the heartache and unending tears

When you think I stand by silent without a care

Realize I'm silently sharing in the burden you bear

When your family can’t help a sleepless night

I’m standing near, praying, and in that joining the fight

For once, long ago, my prayer was the same heart break

I begged for release and relief from the ache

I love you, my child, you need to know

When you have no where to turn no where to go

Tear down the walls, run into my arms open wide

I am the One and Only, and Your Unseen Guide